Wakela Runen's World

I had previously been on the Myspace bandwagon. However, I am so sick of all of the spam that you get. There are way too many requests from men wanting to hook up. That is not why I blog. I blog because I love to write. I blog because I feel that I have so much inside of me that no one wants to listen to. I blog to let it all out. There is just so much going on. I basically blog just for me. If people take the time to read what I write, well thats good. If they decide to comment on it as well, then thats even better. I love feedback. I love to be able to share opinions.

My birthday You were born on a Friday. Your star sign is Libra. The season was Autumn. You are 35 years, 7 months, 22 days old.* It is 131 days until your next Birthday.* You are 13,018 days old.* You are approximately 312,447 hours old.* You are approximately 1,124,810,706 seconds old.* Birthdays Eddie Rickenbacker 1890 Juan Peron 1895 Billy Conn 1917 Rona Barrett 1936 Fred Stolle 1938 Paul Hogan 1939 David Carradine 1940 Fred Cash (The Impressions) 1940 Jesse Jackson 1941 George Bellamy (The Tornados) 1941 Buzz Clifford 1942 R.L. Stine 1943 Chevy Chase 1943 Susan Raye 1944 Tony Wilson (Hot Chocolate) 1947 Sarah Purcell 1948 Brian Glenwright 1949 Sigourney Weaver 1949 Hamish Stuart (Average White Band) 1949 Robert "Kool" Bell (Kool & the Gang) 1950 Johnny Cummings (Ramones) 1951 Ricky Lee Phelps (Brother Phelps) 1953 Michael Dudikoff 1954 Darrell Hammond 1955 Stephanie Zimbalist 1956 Mitch Marine (Tripping Daisy) 1961 Steve Perry (Cherry Poppin' Daddies) 1963 C.J. Wa

Well, everything is all moved over. This totally sucks!! I hate it here. My computer is downstairs. I have it hooked up and I am using boxes to create a desk. Brenda offered to buy one and I pay her back later. I am just too tired and depressed to go to a store. I don't have internet access at the moment. I need to get a wireless router set up in order to even do that. Debbie offered to let me set my computer & desk up in her office. She was supposed to move the couch out so I could set it up. She knew that I would be completely moved over as of today. Do you think anything is moved? Of course not!! I hate my life!!

A few years ago, my mom had read a book called "Messengers" by Julia Ingram and GW Hardin. This book is supposedly a true story about a man named Nick Bunick who is able to communicate with angels. Nick states that one of the main ways that the angels communicate with us is through 444. He had started noticing that the number kept appearing in various ways whenever the angels were with him, such as time, signs, etc. Well, today I was very upset and depressed. I was to the point that I wanted to walk out on my job. I finally left the office around 3pm to go get lunch. At Burger King, I ordered the Angus combo. This should have cost me a little over $5 since the base price without tax is $5.07. However, some way my bill came out to $4.44. I asked the guy if the total was correct. He said that it was. When I got the receipt none of it made sense. It was talking about the angus as only 98 cents and some fish sandwich. My order was completely correct though. I got th

Well life has been totally sucky!! I am having to move in with Debbie & Steve. Their house is a total disaster area. There are boxes everywhere there. Nancy, Brenda & I went over to start moving some of my stuff there this weekend. The room that I am supposed to have still had some of their crap in it. That slowed us down a bit. We had to move that out. My body aches from head to toe. I have been puking all morning. I am pushing my body past its limits. But I need to. I have to be completely out of here for next weekend. I only have a little bit more to pack and move over there. Then I can completely just pass out. I keep ignoring the chest pains I have been having. I am not sure if they are anxiety related, stress related, or heart related. I have been putting off having my cardiac panel done again because I know its still going to be way too high.

Yesterday was a complete shock. Yes I hear from Alex every now and then. So hearing from him the other day wasn't a big deal. He is constantly bugging me every few months or so. I believe the last time he bugged me was about a year ago. However, yesterday I heard from Capt. Joe!!! I hadn't heard from him in years. It was so great to catch up with him. He was shocked how many people from the old crew that I had kept in contact with or at least knew what was going on in their lives. I did get his cell phone number so we can keep in contact. He wants a bunch of us to get together and go out to dinner or something. That way we can catch up. It was really great to hear from him!!

Wow! I had a total blast from the past the other day. I am really not sure how I feel about it. There was a guy who I had been friends with ages ago. After my divorce, we started seeing more of each other. We became more then friends. I thought there was more to it then there was. He kept popping in and out of my life. Each time, he would leave my life I would get upset. I know my friend Krysta basically told me that I can't talk to him anymore. Well, the last few times he has contacted me, I have done good. He contacted me about a year ago and I didn't meet up with him. I knew where it was going to lead. Well, he once again contacted me. I realized that it is getting easier and easier to say no to him. I would rather spend the rest of my life alone then to continue to allow myself to be walked all over by men. I know that some people are concerned about this attitude. If they had been my friend through all the trash that I have dated, then they would agree. I k

My mom finally passed away last night. I wish I could say that it was completely peaceful. She was gasping for air at the end. I am just so glad that she is no longer in any pain. Her pain had become her existence. That is no way to be. She can now be at peace. I may only have a few friends, but I am thankful for the ones that I do have. Even those that I have met over the internet. All of those cyberhugs help!! Thank you for all of your support.

Well, mom's pain was totally unbearable last night. I kept my head on though. The ibuprofen wasn't working & the restoril for sleep wasn't helping either. So I called the hospice nurse. They got an order from the doctor to open the comfort pack and give her some morphin. In the meantime, they would be sending a nurse over to evaluate the situation. So I gave her .25 ml like they told me on the phone. They said if that didn't help her in 45 minutes, I could give her another .25 ml. I ended up giving her the 2nd dose. The nurse got to the house shortly after she fell asleep. He checked her out. They are going to put her on continuous care temporarily until she is out of the pain zone. I had to give her another dose at 2am. Since she barely opened her eyes when I tried giving it to her, I only gave her the .25 ml instead of the .5 ml. I am afraid of giving too much. I know that the nurse said I could give her .5 ml, but she just was so out of it. They have sent another

Well, my mom is doing much worse. We don't think she will last much longer at all. With all the pain that she is in, I hope it is a smooth transition for her. She just lays in bed and cries all the time. She had a lucid moment last night & said that she doesn't think she will last until Christmas. My uncle Jack and cousin Bruce came down from Canada. They will be stopping by this afternoon to say their goodbyes.

Well, I found out last night that one of my cousin's had passed away. He was in a very bad motorcycle accident a few years ago. He was DOA at the hospital. They were able to revive him. His health was pretty bad after that. He died in his sleep on Thursday night. They think that his heart had given out. I just hope that he went peacefully and didn't suffer. May Wayne rest in peace I also got a call from my sister Brenda today. My mom's knee seems to be getting worse. I am not staying with her right now. I am staying at my sister Debbie's house. Nancy and Brenda are talking about taking my mom to the emergency room if it gets any worse.

Well, it seems that even though I work in the healthcare field, I am continually being amazed at the lack of care it has for patients. I am not talking about the office workers or staff of the doctors and centers. I am talking about the corporations that are completely in charge of your life, the insurance companies. First, they had discharged my mom straight from ICU to a nursing home while having heart complications. Now, they are discharging her from the nursing facility to our home even though she isn't completely mobile yet. We have an older home and a wheelchair is pretty much not an option. The hallway is too narrow for it. All we can do is to wheel her up and back. We can sort of squeeze the wheelchair into one of the rooms. However, the bathroom is completely out of the question. The door is much narrower then a normal door. So unless we completely take the door & door frame off, then there is no way to get the wheelchair into there. I work full time so my mo

Ok so I have not had internet access at home for almost a month now. This is really getting to me. I am so used to playing my games & such. Well, I am using someone else's computer to type this. I don't have too much time though. Hopefully, I will get back online sometime soon