Wakela Runen's World

My mom had her knee replacement on Friday. I am not even sure what to think at this point. The surgeon originally told us that it would be only about an hour & a half to two hours for the surgery. It ended up lasting five hours. He said that she was stable & doing well. However, when we went into the recovery room to see her, the nurse stated "We have been working to stabilize her condition". That let's me know that she wasn't stable & something was going on. One look at her monitor showed that her heart rate & respirations were all over the place. She ended up going into ICU. Her entire stay in ICU, she was throwing PVCs (premature ventricular contraction) and she was in atrial fibrillation. Plus her heart rate would spike intensely. In a younger person, it would be easier to recover from this. However, in a 76 year old woman with major health issues, it can definitely lead to heart attack or stroke. She was also on a PCA pump filled with m

Ok so I have not had internet access at home for almost a month now. This is really getting to me. I am so used to playing my games & such. Well, I am using someone else's computer to type this. I don't have too much time though. Hopefully, I will get back online sometime soon

Here is another one that I wrote a few years back. The Tides of Emotion © May 2004 Crystalline Spiritwalker Ebbing and flowing The emotions roll in On a beautiful day, softly lapping at the shores of our heart On the surface peaceful, glistening and shining However, deeper and deeper you dive beneath Darker and murkier Mysterious and yet profound Unknown lurking Hidden until the storms rage Tossing aside calmness Whirling eddies Drawing the sinking ship into the vast chasm Deep within the salty waters Paddling frantically Trying to stay afloat Zoloft becomes your life preserver Clinging to sanity Praying to be saved from the shipwreck

This is an old poem that I wrote back in 2003 for a talk I was giving on Samhein. At the time I was writing as Crystalline Spiritwalker. Samhain Night by Crystalline Spiritwalker October 25, 2003 Darkness creeps in the land quiets down anticipation of visits as the veil thins Relatives long gone Coming by for a chat Their spirits are here with us Closer then ever before Love ones we have missed Others we are glad are gone Those not known to us All here to visit once more Witches celebrate Its the Celtic new year Time for change and transformation Time for renewal Shifting Changing Everything spinning As the Wheel of the Year starts again

Well, I have completely had the week from hell. Work was utterly unbearable. We are still not going to be getting any new employees to help with the increased hours or increased work load. Last week, one of our best employees left. Cristina was an awesome worker. She was great with the patients. She couldn't afford the insurance rate increase, so she had to leave. This is really sad. They would rather risk losing good employees then to do something about it. The morale at the office is going down the tubes. Last night I was the closer. I literally was there for two hours by myself. I had to answer phones, register patients, and do the closing paperwork. One lady got mad at me because I had her on hold for too long. I had a patient in front of me that I was trying to get registered. I had no choice. I can't do both at the same time. How can I talk to two people at once? Impossible! What happened to the days when employers actually cared about the employees? Don

Those who really know me, know that one of my loves is to play the djembe. To me, it is fun and extremely cathartic. If you have had a rough day at work, nothing is better then to beat out your frustrations on a drum. I am only an average player. I don't get to play as often as I would like. Between my mom's health and my own, I haven't been able to go to a drum circle in ages. Anyway, the reason I am mentioning this is because of a video that I ran across. The kid in this video is only 4 years old.

Ok so last night I dreamt that my job was a prison. I don't mean that I got a new job in a jail. I mean that my current job had bars on the windows and we were there doing time. I guess that this would be a perfect metafor for the way that I am feeling about my job lately. I still like working with all the people there. Its just that every time I turn around someone is adding a new project to my plate. I already have way more things to do then there are hours in the day. (And I am not talking about 8 hour shift, I am talking 24 hour day!!) It has gotten to the point that everything that they want me to do, just can't physically be done by one person. In fact, I don't think it can be physically done by two people. I am slacking off on so many of them because it is just too much. I am burning out really fast! They keep wanting me to come in on weekends now to work overtime to get this stuff done. I am getting so burned out that I just don't want to. It is becom