Wakela Runen's World

Last night I decided to log into AIM to chat with a friend that I haven't spoken to in ages. Fig & I had met a few years back while beta testing The Sims Online. We became really good friends & even met in person. Well, while logged in, someone that I HATE sent me an IM. At first, I ignored it. However, he kept sending them. Curiosity got the best of me. I answered Joe to find out what he wanted. After all that he had done to me, he thought I was upset with him about a little IM conversation that happened over a year ago. Now I know that hate is a very strong word to use. However, when it comes to Joe, that isn't strong enough. Ok. Let's step back in time to review what happened. It all started back in October 1999. I was still in the midst of a nasty custody battle with my ex husband. I was extremely depressed at all the stuff that he was putting me through. I had heard about the Witches Ball at the local UU. I decided to go with my sister and one of ou

This is a poem that I wrote over two years ago. I don't even remember the name of the guy that I liked at the time. Now that is sad!! Bittersweet Mysteries To know your thoughts To know your dreams To catch a glimpse within Intrigues aroused Feelings awakened Some may say you aren't for me Some may ask me why There is a mystery Its so hard to say The way you move The way you smile The way you think Its not just one thing You are a total person You are a shining soul Truth and vitality pour forth I may not be able to tell you You may never know Feelings abound Feelings locked deep inside Sadness overwhelms For the bittersweet mysteries Life brought us together Life keeps us apart Not life itself But fear of living Fear of reaching out to another Lives so different Yet lives so similar If I only knew It would be so much easier I know my thoughts Yours are a mystery Friends say they know How can anyone but you know Give just a hint Give just a clue Let me taste the bittersweet m

Wow!! Today was a really busy day. I woke up at around 6am so that I could get ready for work. I got to the office at 7am. I thought that I would get in there early to get some paperwork done before the patients starting rolling in. Well, the first patient showed up at 6 minutes after 7. Her appointment wasn't until 8am. Grrrr!!! I can't complain though. Saturdays are really easy & it is overtime!!! Farah & I worked until 2pm. On my way home, I called my sister to have her come help me set up my new bed. It took us about 2 hours to do the entire thing. It is really nice looking. I love the fact that I have added storage space with this one. Afterwards, I logged into EQ2. I am so bummed out though. One of the guys from our guild passed away yesterday. I am really going to miss Zanadaugh. He was a great guy. He was always joking around. He had just gotten married to Jenili a few weeks ago. I can't even begin to imagine how she feels. The freaky part is that he is the

Last night I got tons accomplished in EQ2. It was a pretty decent patch yesterday. The new guild functions are up. Hopefully, this will help us to recruit new members. Krystae and I spent most of our time in Sinking Sands again. When I first logged in though, I had to run through the 3 thieves in the court quests. I want to get more of the Peacock Club quests out of the way. I am also working on In the Name of Love for the Court of Truth. That is the court that Krys & I decided to get faction with. We are already ally. We aren't at max yet though. While out on Hullcrusher rock, the named (Mythwail Hullcrusher) spawned. So of course we had to kill her. Our motto is, if it is named, it must die (unless it is epic & we are alone!) Well, time to dive back into Norrath. I have a few quests I want to finish up before heading to work.

Well, its about time that I got my head back into being creative. I had stopped being creative for awhile now. I used to make sig tags & incredimail stats under the name Crystalline Spiritwalker. I used to also write poetry under that name as well. I just let it all fall the wayside. Last night, I took out some of my old sig tags & created them into stickers for IMVU. I also tried my hand at the demo top. That was way too easy. I want to start working on some harder pieces. I guess I am starting to feel much better. I have hypothyroidism & sometimes it gets so out of control that I can barely function. It gets hard to just get up in the morning. I finally found some doctors that are helping me out. They are slowly adjusting my medicine so I won't have too much difficulty with it like I have in the past. Now that my head seems to be clearing up, I am thinking more and wanting to get back to doing more things. Previously, the only things I would do was to work and play Ev

Thanks for all the support that I have been getting. Sometimes I feel so alone, so it is always nice to know that people actually do care. I just went to the new endocrinologist. I am not sure what to think of him. My mom insisted that she go to "help" me remember my symptoms. I had them all written down on a piece of paper though. Well, she basically made the doctor think that I am just majorly a depressed person because of all the difficulties I have had in my life. I feel I handle those pretty well. The reason I get moody and depressed is because of the way I feel physically. I hate knowing that I am smarter then I appear. Its just so difficult for me to think at a normal speed anymore. It takes me so long to try to formulate the words. This doctor thinks that I don't just have hypothyroidism as all the other endocrinologists think. He feels that I have hashimoto's thyroiditis. This is where your autoimmune system is actually attacking the thyroid. People who have

Well, I know that I haven't really posted anything in a very long time. The last few things that I have actually posted were just quizes. There has been a lot of shit going on with me. My thyroid condition has worsened greatly. I finally found a great pcp to go to. Anyone in the south florida area needing a good pcp, you need to check out Dr. West-Ky Abrams. He is great! Anyway, he did a lot of testing on me and my thyroid. I went through a nuclear medicine study of my thyroid and found that I have cold nodules on it. Basically, there are a two main types of nodules that can be found. Hot nodules which are never cancerous. And cold nodules which could be either cancerous, benign, or cysts. So he sent me for an ultrasound of my thyroid. The majority of what they found were cysts. There are some solid nodules that I need to have biopsied though. I did some research and found out that only 1% of solid thyroid nodules are actually cancerous. So I don't have too much worry about th